Life Lesson: Be True to Yourself

I have just learned that once I was able to risk loosing someone in order to be myself – I gained a better friend and more respect for myself.
I was tearing myself up by not expressing my true feelings. But when I finally said, “the hell with it,” “I have to get this out even if I loose a friend” – I felt free. I was no longer obsessed with the possibility of loosing a friend because if I lost them for speaking my mind – maybe they weren’t worth keeping.

I won’t say that I am ready to always speak my mind, but I will try to be more true to myself because when I suppress who I am, I’m the one who suffers.

Weekly Writing Challenge: Object

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Walls

A Wall is an interesting thing
Walls are everywhere – they surround us
Some are weak
Some are strong
Some stand Tall
Others sit small

They hold us in and keep others out

We put them up
We tear them down

A Wall is an interesting thing
A haven or prison
A friend or foe
Walls mean different things to different people where ever you go

A Wall is an interesting thing
They shield us from shame
They block us from pain
And protect us from ourselves

Daily Prompt: We’ve Got the Beat

Have you ever played in a band? Tell us all about that experience of making music with friends. If you’ve never been in a band, imagine you’re forming a band with some good friends. What instrument do you play in the band and why? What sort of music will you play? – The Daily Post

Although I never played in a band, music used to be a big part of my life. From elementary school to college, singing was my passion. My dream was always to share my voice with the world through song. Singing gave me the power to share my feelings and evoke emotions in my audience. When I was on stage people felt my presence and listened to what I had to say. My music gave me a voice and made me feel special. 

Unfortunately I stopped singing during my second year in college. My dad told me that I had to grow up and realize that just because you love something doesn’t mean that you were necessarily meant to spend your life that way. 

20 years later, I now know that you don’t always have to be great at something  to continue doing it- sometimes just loving it is enough. When I stopped singing my passion died and I lost a big part of myself. 

I am now trying to reignite my passion and bring back my voice. Good or bad – I will learn to let the music play again!

Daily Prompt: Walking on the Moon

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“What giant step did you take where you hoped your leg wouldn’t break? Was it worth it, were you successful in walking on the moon, or did your leg break?” –The Daily Post

Last year I challenged myself to face my fear of heights. A friend of mine invited me to join her and a small group of friends to experience a zip line and tree top adventure. Normally I would’ve said No immediately, but something inside made me say Maybe, then Maybe turned into Yes!

I won’t say that this experience was easy. It was scary as hell but I did it and when it was over I felt like I had accomplished something and I was proud of myself.

Stepping out of my comfort zone and taking that first leap of faith has given me a renewed sense of passion in life. It’s encouraged me to seek out activities that stretch me as a person.

Who knows, maybe I’ll walk on the Moon for real one day!

Daily Prompt: Tainted Love

Daily Prompt: Tainted Love

I see it in your eyes before you even say the words.

“I don’t love you.”

I hold my breath as tears well up in my eyes threatening to drown my soul.

“What did I do wrong,”I ask?

Nothing… I just don’t love you!

There they are, those words again that feel like a knife slicing through my heart.

“Did you ever love me,” I whisper? Not wanting to hear the answer.

“I don’t know” you reply, in a voice devoid of warmth or emotion.

My head is reeling as I look into the eyes of a person I no longer know, but thought I loved. A person I opened my heart to and shared myself with only to see a stranger walk away without a second glance…

Daily Prompt: Nothin’ But A Good Time

Daily Prompt: My Day

Sun filters through my window inviting me to wake

The sweet aroma of delicious-naughtiness motivates me to rise and begin my day

Blue skies,
Soft breezes,
Rollerskating
Anticipating…
Laughter fills the day!

As the sun sets the music of the night begins
Dancing, Singing,
Until peacefulness sets in again

Is Humanity Lost?

Is humanity lost? I know there are still good people in the world but I worry that they will soon become extinct.

It used to be that when I would look at the news and see all the bad things happening in the world I would be glad that I was safe and sound in my own little corner of the world.

But what happens when the “bad” stuff begins to invade your community? What happens when the people you see on the news doing bad things are familiar faces? Your world, not just “The” world becomes a much scarier place.

What happened to using common sense and common curtesy? There was a time when people tried to set a good example for children instead of breaking out into brawls at children’s events. There was a time when people didn’t say, shout, and write anything that was on their mind no matter how hateful. People used to practice what we call tact and diplomacy.

So how do we bring humanity back?

  • Use your words to heal rather than hurt.
  • Use your hands to help rather than hit.
  • Work together to improve the mental health care system so that those who are struggling get the help they need before they resort to violence.

This may not be a solution but it’s a start!

Prayers

I was watching an old episode of A Different World and for some reason this speech by Dwayne Wayne hit me and stayed with me all day. It’s simple, yet says it all.

When you pray you can ask for things, you can yell, you can try to cut a deal. Sometimes you get what you want, sometimes you get what you need and sometimes you just get what you get. I think God helps you hang-in with what you get.

Dwayne Wayne, A Different World: Unanswered Prayers

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